Like most people with this kind of hobby i collect figures of my favourite anime and manga characters. Some people try to keep this hobby secret (especially as a girl) from their parents and friends, thus the name closet otaku!
My parents know about this hobby of mine but i get the feeling they don't understand it. For example if i recieve things in the post my mum (mostly my mum) just sighs. They say figures are a waste of my money and i should be spending it on other things. I am finding it difficult to fund this hobby because i am currently jobless and having important exams coming up. So i save up my £5 a week pocket money and do extra work around the house and look after my arse of a little brother.
You may be thinking why call yourself the closet otaku if your parents know about your hobby? Well i hide it from my friends. All my friends at school and outside of school are uninterested in anime, manga etc and they have no idea of this hobby of mine. Like if i have a friend round i always hide my figures under my bed or in my wardrobe. My friends do realise i like manga and anime so i always leave my manga on display, my friends at school think i am obsessed with Japan just because i have a K-ON! sticker on my phone or a keyring of a anime character (Haruhi to be exact) and they do think i am strange but they thought that even before i told them about it. I was always one of the 'different' kids at school.
When one of my friends came over i decided to show her my figure collection but i was nervous of what she would think so i only took one out and left it one my desk. This friend was interested in anime but not as much as me. When i shown her my Miku nendoroid she just said 'Your even more sad than me!' and ever since i have continued to hide my hobby.
In the UK people can be well....arrogant, for example my 12 year old brother who says things like 'Get friends' , 'Go play with your Jap shit' and 'Go masturbate to Hatsune miku' which would upset anybody but i just ignore him and his somewhat racist remarks.
I think my dad has accepted my hobby the most but he laughes at the fact that i cosplay and listen to Japanese music. My mum wouldn't go outside with me while i had my costume on and i don't want my friends to know so i am yet to wear my costume outside. Another thing stopping me is the people in the estate where i live, they are basically 'Neds' or 'Chavs' if you are English and would most likely laugh at my costume because they already call me goth or emo depending on what drugs they have been taking.
I hope someone out there understands what i am feeling and took the patience to read this loooong entry of what i like and what i am.
Thank you for reading ^0^
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